grace

i have found that when overlooking flaws in an attempt to be kind and accepting, the flawed individuals i extend what i believe to be [such] kindness to take me for a damn fool. a doormat, even. i have come to schizophrenically conclude this to mean that these people KNOW that they're being shitty, and think that i just don't realize their manipulation to be deliberate. therefore i must be stupid.

with very little ego, let me assure you that i am not. and that your time will come. whether i have willingly lent you money, lent you an ear, or let your dick in my mouth, i'm aware of the things that make you an inferior being. i am not the swift hand of justice, the universe will purge you out. it is, however, my sole responsibility to myself to not let you people in any longer. my suffering will always be done in silence, if only because i know some of you thrive on it. you sick little pigs.