i've been lost i've been found i've been fooling around

I've been hold, I've been told, I've been changing my mind.

throughout the day, i'd swear i have a lot to say, but when i sit down to think i'm gonna write, i feel too tired. I MUST PUSH ON, and update my gibberish a little more often, even if it is just that.

i learned today that Sweden is the new Japan.

i'm also trying to un-learn some other shit. my outlook on most things, i reckon, will continue to be cynical, perhaps even mockingly so, but i'm trying to be fair. struggling to be, even. i believe that those who think that unrelated people in their lives may be conspiring to play cruel jokes on them...those people are generally referred to as paranoid schizophrenics. WHICH I AM NOT. i'm used to things and people being a certain way, maybe, and if something or someone displays even the slightest bit of awesomeness, i'm all THIS DOES NOT ADD UP.

if this is called living, well don't count me in
sure I feel alive, but it doesn't mean a thing, no nothing.

the chain of events when my heart peeks out of the iron bars, goes thusly:

WHEEE? ----- hrrrmmm ----- o rly? :) ----- O_o ------ *goes back in and triple locks the door.

but! terrorized heart be damned, i'm entirely too curious.
i'm gonna kill this cat.